Today is a day like any other... or at least a day like any other in the last 7 weeks. I wish I could say I knew the reason for this awful and drastic change, but I haven't the slightest clue.
Starting around the beginning of April, I had developed a less depressive mood, I was feeling better every day. One day, I woke up and felt different. After 3 days of being edgy and overly dramatic, I finally realized what on earth was happening. I was slipping into a manic episode. It lasted around 2 weeks and was gone just as quickly as it came, overnight. Over the last few weeks I have been on a slow decline... Falling lower and lower daily. I have stopped showering daily, I have stopped eating as much, I am unable to sleep at night and my hallucinations are worse than I can ever remember. To make matters worse, I cut myself. Badly. And I don't even recall doing it. That hasn't happened since after Christmas, and now its happening every 2-4 days... I couldn't recall spending hours at a friends' house, or going to the store. I can't recall getting home or how I got there.
That's all for now. I'm sorry its disorganized, there's just so much going on.
Eternally stuck,
Maggie
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